Well, here we are, 12 months on from the launch of Skip This Podcast.
I dont think anyone thought we would still be doing this 12 months, I sure as hell didn't.
I thought we would do maybe 10 episodes, and we would run out of steam/out of interest/out of things to talk about. There was also the very real chance of Luke getting annoyed at my flakiness and ability to follow direction/be a reliable co-host. I think those three things are still very much things I annoy Luke with, but we have held on for the ride, and just released episode 32.
In a strange twist of fate, on the 12 month to the actual day of the first podcast launching, I was asked by a good mate of mine, Andy Jackman, if I would be interested to be the first profile for 2021, on his amazing mental health instagram page, the Holdfast Project. Without hesitation I jumped at the opportunity, and penned together the below story.
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It bought a lot of feelings back, around the second episode we launched, when I "came out of the closet" about my mental health battles. For a full trip down memory lane, you can listen to the episode here.
For me, I remember the fear and hesitation about releasing this episode. I just wasn't sure I was ready to announce my issues to the world. I got the reassurance I needed when I sent a copy of the episode to my parents and siblings, before it went live, and their words of encouragement allowed me to hit go and release the episode. When I say hit go, I don't really do any of that behind the scenes shit. Luke is the man for that, but more on that later.
I'm sure if you are a regular listener of the podcast, you have heard me mention multiple times about the letter I wrote to myself and to my family, which in turn has now been circulated to about 20 ish people. I hadn't looked at it for 13 months until last week, when I wanted to have a little read, and I think to appreciate how far I have come.
One day I will finish it completely, and write a book. Its a lot of just jumbled sentences, but here is a paragraph I wrote that still resonates to this day, in the early days of the depression battle -
For the first 12 months, I did the worst thing possible, I suffered in silence. Only my immediate family knew, and even then, when they would check up on me, I would always lie, and tell them things were OK. I didn’t want them to worry about me. My attitude always was along the lines of “I have a great job, a great lifestyle, living in Southern California, what is my problem, there are people way worse off than me”.
This post is getting too deep isn't it. Lets change pace.
There has been so many people to thank on this podcast and life journey, but there is one that sits on the top of this list, the great man that is Lucas Goldman, AKA Luke, my co-host and best mate.
None of what you see and hear is possible without him. I don't know how he finds the time to be a full time worker, a husband, a father, a therapist to me, a podcast host, a podcast producer, a podcast social media manager. And he does it all with a huge smile on his face.
Luke is the MVP of Skip This Podcast, and I love the shit out of him and our friendship. Podcast or no podcast, he is my best mate, and I am not sure where I would be without him. And his beautiful wife Ash.
If you are keen for another trip down memory lane, check out Luke's deep dive in episode 3. I was so proud of him for doing this.
Skip This has evolved over this 12 months, and continues to grow. Thanks to everyone that listens and shares our content. We do it for the love, and the hope that we touch some people and make them realise that it is ok not to be ok, but if you can be open with those feelings, that is step one of getting yourself better.
As always, I am here if you need me - 0401 000 627.